not complaining
i do not want to complain
i want to go through a whole day
making stuff, fixing things, helping friends
and not drop a single gripe
i do not even want to list things
that i am not complaining about
just naming them feels like
it feeds the monster
that i am trying to starve
i do not want to wish that
things had happened differently
instead i want to wonder about
what things might become
i do not want to explain
whose fault this all is
i would prefer to explore
a world made possible by grace
here i am
i am not complaining
... but i am noticing
how lonely it is here
